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I’m learning in a whole new way that when you say “yes” to something, this means you are also saying “no” to something else.
Several weeks ago I felt a “Now! Do it now, Heather” come to me one Monday morning. I knew immediately that I was to write the book, the one that won’t leave me alone. Granted I wasn’t surprised by the thought. It’s always been my dream to write books.
But the timing threw me a bit. I mean, I’m already writing a lot, developing my blog, building community, etc. Now? Really? Now is the time?
“Yep! Now. And you will self-publish it.”
You guys, something about this urgency didn’t even let me entertain all the reasons (ahem, excuses) as to why I couldn’t do it now. So I jumped onto my laptop that afternoon and began writing.
I didn’t start with research. I didn’t start with an outline. I’m a trained writer (yes, a college degree in professional writing).
Instead I set aside the process and just decided to write. It was like my fingers could barely type fast enough to get the words out.
The next thing I began doing was telling everyone I was writing a book. I didn’t really want to but I did anyways. Pretty much every group in my life knows I’m writing a book and everywhere I go, I get asked about it.
People asking me about it has been precious to me because I’m learning how to talk about what it is and as I talk about it, the book becomes clearer to me.
I’m learning to get the heck over my fears and just own my place in this world, which is writing. I’m a writer. The written word has used powerfully throughout my lifetime. Now it’s my turn to use words to bring change to the world, a change we desperately need!
The draft deadline? To finish this before our anniversary cruise.
Are you freaking kidding me? That’s 90 days away! But an incredible conversation with my mom confirmed that I am to finish it before our anniversary cruise.
So I’m in it. I’m committed to this happening. Guess what? Most days I don’t feel like sitting down to write. I look up to the heavens and together He and I put the words on the page to share with whoever needs this book.
THE POINT…
With so much energy going to this book, I’m left with nothing to put on my blog or on my social media. I feel a little recluse these days. Every day is about finding pockets of time to write, write, write.
I’ve cut out as much extra as I can. But I hate that I’m NOT showing up for you guys in the way I want to be.
As I shared this with my sister this week, she encouraged me to just share my heart with you, to let you know where I’m at and what I’m up to.
I’m still showing up for you but for now it’s in writing this book that I think about day and night. I’m here. I’m here in big ways, pouring myself into this book about money and freedom and hope.
If you’re still reading, then congratulations! You get a sneak peek at what I’ve written so far.
-Excerpt from my book-
“I am Heather and I am a thief. Yes, I have stolen and stolen big. No I didn’t sneak a piece of candy out of the local gas station. It wasn’t mascara from the pharmacy. It wasn’t a cute tank top from the mall.
No. What I stole was far worse.
And while I have been released from this shame and regret, I still dealing with the consequences of my days of thievery.
I haven’t served jail time for my actions. At least not a physical jail. But I have served time in a jail, made of mental walls, an emotional floor, and bound by spiritual chains”
